When I take care of my spiritual self everything else tends to fall into place around me. Of late I have let the former slip and I’m convinced it’s part of what has fucked up the latter.
Self care is one of the most important things we can do, especially at times like these when it feels like the world could end at any damn moment. I’m currently trying to rebuild those routines that keep me from climbing the walls and feeling like I’m stuck somewhere on the ceiling with a cobweb. Now I’m not one of those super spiritual, always seems to have their lives together types. Damn I wish I was though. I’m a very flawed cucumber with anxiety trying to get through the day without ringing someone’s neck. Including my own.
But when I make the effort to care for my spiritual needs, the time to meditate, to do a daily card reading and to put intent into even the small things my life does tend to fall back into place much better. Because I’m starting and ending the day right. Even if it all goes to shit in the middle I’ve at least made an effort. And one of the places I never saw it making a difference was in my sex life, ok, wanking life. Because I will not be having sex for a long long long long long long time. Since keeping the wanking diary, that would surely have grown dust if it wasn’t on my phone, I’ve realised that I haven’t had a wank yet this year. Something that isn’t like me. But since taking more care in my day to day practices I have felt more relaxed and as a result I can feel my sex drive coming back. Sure it’s more of a trickle than a flow but I really haven’t been practicing any self care of late.
I can’t sit here and advise you on what you should be doing, I’m in no way qualified and I just don’t know you my beautiful reader. I don’t know what works for you, only for me. Meditation, journaling and tarot cards may well not work for you. Maybe you’re more of a scented candles kind of person, or a video game or a really good book. So if you’re feeling a lack of sex drive you want back go do some shit to relax yourself, even the non-sexual can be a big help.